What's happening with me???

So you probably all heard that I had a scheduled C-section with general anesthesia.  I went in to the hospital Tuesday June 8th, 2010.  It turns out when they were prepping me and trying the get the IV in (6 tries of blowing every vein...have bruises to prove it...) I was actually contracting and had been for several days they said.  I just thought I had a gas bubble, not contractions.  Reed was meant to come that day.  Surgery went well, although it was very scary.  Since I didn't get an epideral or spinal, they had to do all the preps without me being out of it or numb...I felt EVERYTHING! The catheter, the scrubbing of my belly, they tied my legs and arms down to the table, I was shaking to death in that cold room, felt and saw in the light above me the doctor ready with the scalpel on my belly...I heard them naming off and counting all the instruments and them squeezing my neck to get the tube down my throat.  The doc's all apologized for everything, saying that normally no one hears or feels all the prep.  I thought I was going to die.  Till they said, ok we're ready.  They had to wait til the last second to put me to sleep and cut so that Reed would not to be affected by the anesthesia.  Then I was out and awake and there was August standing there crying telling me, "He is so cute..."  Even though Reed was right next to my side in a little heater, I couldn't focus my eyes for several hours to see him.  I forgot why I had surgery and when I came to, I told August I had just went shopping at Junky Trunk.  Ha, it was pretty funny.  I look over and there was my baby- a BLONDIE! I never thought he would be dirty blonde.  Both August and I had the darkest brown hair- mine almost black.  He is so precious.  August did get to tape him coming out of my belly which was amazing but very bloody.  My amniotic fluid even shot out like 8 feet across the room.  Pretty gross.  The whole hospital stay was a blur to me.  Probably because I was on morphine every ten min, pumped into my IV.  Then on percoset the last day.  Now that we are home, I have gradually weened off the pills.  They make me nautious.  Now that I'm home I have had chills, fever like symptoms, major swelling in my feet and legs, diarrhea, major HIGH blood pressure, etc.  The doc thinks it may be a rare case of postpartum pre eclamsia. I am now on high blood pressure meds and water pills.  My swelling has dissipated, but the blood pressure keeps rising.  It has stayed in the 140/90's range.  It's really scaring me.  I hope it's just from all the anxiety and stress of being a new mom.  I stress about time- when to feed, I never sleep, never eat, etc.  I am down to 109 lbs.  I started pre pregnant weight at 100 lb.  I still have a belly though- loose-yuck.  I think I lost so much due to being so sick.  My milk has not come in yet, probably from the stress as well and from not pumping but only maybe 6 hours in between- sometimes longer.  I know it's because I don't do it often enough.  I try to breastfeed but I know I'm only producing about 1 oz total between the two breasts.  I supplement with formula every time.  I don't know how to get him on a schedule.  I haven't had time to do anything. I never nap, run on 2 hours of sleep a night.  I never knew being a mom would be this hard...
I love my little man though so much! And my husband.  August has really stepped up and done alot for me.  He takes care of Reed when I have just had it.  I have baby blues bad.  I cry all the time.  I never use to cry.  It's so hard to wake Reed up for feedings.  It seriously takes about an hour and then an hour to feed and by the time he falls back asleep and I wash his bottle, change his diaper, it's time to do it all over again- I never have a break- EVER.  I hope it get's easier.
Reed makes the funniest faces. I try to get him awake and every time he first stretches.  Then he makes "the old man scrunched face".  Then he grins, then he closes his mouth in a circle that looks likes he whistling.  All this without opening his eyes or waking up...stinker!  When he is done eating, he closes up shop.  He tucks in his bottom lip and won't let you in.  He sometimes does the kissy face too- I always kiss him on the lips then.  He is a cutie- especially when he opens his eyes- which is only once during the day, but lays there with them open all night...turkey.  He is a stinker but he is such a cutie.  I just hope he gets his days and nights flipped and that he will wake up for me.  Also I hope the doctor figures out what's wrong with me- I hate all these meds.

Reed's stats yesterday (10 days old) at the doctor- 21 3/4 inches- he grew 2 in. since birth! (90th percentile for height) He now weighs an ounce more- 7 lbs 13 oz. He is just long and slim.  I love him!
We gave him his fist bath today- he didn't like it too much... Oh and this little man is a tooting machine!!! His farts are as loud and long as daddy's!

Thanks for all the visitors! His grandparents love him- especially my dad.  He texts me every hour to see how peanut is doing and to say hi and call him from his iPhone- inside joke. lol